I have found that usually when I am faced with the end of something, I must look at the beginning to understand the journey. Maybe I'm just a sentimental sap, maybe I knew then that all good things come to an end, but the middle was my meat and for that I am satisfied.
I'll let the first words, the first entry I ever wrote in this journal speak for how I feel now..........
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Written November 8th, 2004
To All Those Who Have Started Over
To Create: The art of simply writing: Honesty.
Sometimes without regard to those who could benefit, or to those who could be hurt. That's the problem with writing. That's the problem with the written word, being a relic, being concrete, tis neither black or white.
It is what it is.
To be dissected, analyzed, interpreted. Taken out of context, or to be understood or misunderstood. Delete at the touch of a button, or a burning party.
How many of us have participated in a burning party? All the concrete reminders gone, reduced as they should to ashes. But the memories, no way to delete those, no way to burn those away.
A lifetime of memories to be discussed, looked at, reflected upon. No hiding from them. No delete button there. All there inside my head where the walls are black and the roof is red.
I guess I've found myself in a "middle of the ground" area. A crossroads of sorts. Not sure which path to follow. Which direction would have the least regret. Sometimes the safety in standing still is a humble motion, but also a cowardly one. So for now, I'll just keep writing. Discovering, exploring and avoid that delete button.
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I'll let AOL burn my journal, my sweet In the Shadow of The Iris. I'm not going to transfer it, or archive it's words to gather dust somewhere......I rather like the thought of a black abyss, black ashes, nothingness and finished. I'm good with that.
My journey isn't over. It simply has a new address.
The New Homestead is located at.....
Latent Thoughts
p.s. leaving your new address would be most helpful in my next quest of finding everyone...
Thank You Everyone
In the Shadow of the Iris wouldn't have been the same without you.
The reason this journal was created remains the same,
And the song this journal is named after, I still can't escape that shadow.......
14 comments:
You simply cannot know how your words here in the shadows have both touched my heart and inspired my deepest thoughts. Thank you, for all that you have poured into these pages, and for honoring us with your presence. You are truly a beautiful soul, Rebecca.
Thank you for sharing the journey as it continues.
Michelle
I don't reread my old entries, and though I'm glad to have them archived, I think blogging, by its very nature, exists in the present tense.
I'm glad you got in under the wire.
See you at your new place! I'm glad you'll still be writing. My new address is:
http://therustyspigot.wordpress.com/
~~Kath~~
You are beyond cool. Glad that you will continue to write. I'll check you out at your new address. --Sheria
moved to http://theexaminedlife-sheria.blogspot.com
I'm so glad to see you've moved over to Blogger. I visited with my new addy, but will leave it here, also.
I'm going to spend the next week or so reading some past entries, here and there, spending some sentimental time before AOL pulls the plug. I have this thing about words, I want to save them all, my book collection is testament to that.
Hugs, Leigh
I'm here: http://leigh-mythoughtshonestly.blogspot.com/
And here: http://walkinginmyshoeshonestly.blogspot.com/
See, you're in a different place than many. You have your offline writing, your pen and paper journals, your developing novel, your letters to your daughters. You have your serious writing that you would wish to be more permanent elsewhere. This is just a place for you to throw whimsy at the world (hence the unintentional poetry). I. like so many others, only write online.
Glad you found me. Glad you found out about this whole skinamarink. I was worried you'd gone walkabout and would only return after everything was gone.
-Paul
So glad you made and entry so I can follow you over...missed your words of wisdom lately...hugs,TerryAnn
Glad you're moving over... Looking forward to more of your entries...
Mik
http://alohamik.blogspot.com
Rebecca I am so glad that I came to know you through the "Iris", that is my favorite flower and what drew me towards your journal was it's name. When I first started reading you I felt a kindred spirit, your search for "yourself" enthralled me. Never give up the great spirit that you have keep on searching and please take us with you....love, Sandi PS I found you over there too////
I admire your approach to the eviction. Let it burn, baby!
Tried to open up shop over at blogger. Even tried to move stuff over. Walked away in frustration. ARGH! I have no idea what I'm doing~~~
www.waxbarsalon.com
You'll hear from me soon (but never see anything on ebay! Ever.)
Judith Ann
Rebecca,
It appears you have already found me. I am so happy the we have not lost contact, at least in this fashion.
Smiles,
David
http://sunshinecolorado.blogspot.com/
Oh, this is NOT for my quick read while I wait between meetings........... I'll re-read this later. I do hope you don't stay in the shadows and move forward, to a new beginning somewhere! I'll be starting a new blog, and thinking it through. Yes, looking at the beginning, and the new beginning.
Wishing you well, always, Rebecca, and hope we don't lose complete touch.
Thank you for being one of the people who inspired me to create an AOL journal. See ya over on Blogger.
Charles
I actually have a new blog address now. Yep, I was brave (and it wasn't as hard as I anticipated): http://randomthreadsofmylife.blogspot.com/
Please keep in touch, and should you go back to public writing, keep me informed:)
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