Good Intention, Wrong Person

I adore a good intention.
I love to watch other people do the "right thing" ...the "honorable thing" ....the " kind thing"....and like to think of myself as a person who would do anything, within my power, to help another human being.

But today, I find myself at odds with what was supposed to be a random act of kindness last night, that feels like a major f*** up today. The short of it~~ I was driving when I noticed a small truck that had slid off the road. It had been snowing all day, was slick out and the fact a truck was off the road wasn't exactly alarming, considering.......so I slowed down enough to notice a woman wandering around behind her truck. I pulled over to see if she needed help, a pretty much automatic reaction, right?

This woman hurried over to my vehicle, breathless, panicked, frantic and when I asked if I could do something she exclaimed a ride home would be perfect, she'll just grab her truck later. The truck looked pretty stuck, at a strangle angle, etc etc. A ride I could do, not a big detour off my course, and off we went. Random act of kindness in live action............

But this is where my feel good thoughts turned bad. For one, she was ranting and raving about extremely strange topics. She would say, "Thank You, Thank You, your 're my angel!" and then in the next breath says " Don't you just HATE woman, aren't woman just horrible ,<insert several colorful cuss words here> " and so on.....

....and the more she talked, the more my vehicle filled up with the stench of alcohol.

This is where I started to feel sick. I realized I was helping a drunk driver evade facing the consequences of driving while intoxicated.....gut sick about it.

I have a notion about drunk drivers. For one, I don't give a shit who you are, if you drink and drive, you deserve nothing less then a nice little jail cell to sober you up. No excuses, no exceptions, no mercy. In my world, there is no gray zone for drinking and driving. Not even the 'just a beer or two' slides past my no tolerance for drinking and driving ideals when it comes to this topic. So, imagine my dilemma to discover I was helping a drunk driver.

And yes, I asked, "So, how much have you had to drink tonight??"
To which she replied, laughing, slurring, " I'm sooo like fucking wasted, I just luvvvvv Whiskey!"

I did drop this woman off at her house.
Although, today I wish I would have turned around, taken her back to her truck, kicked her out my door, made a call, and then waited for the police to show up. I wish I had, but I didn't and today it hasn't settled very well with me. Not well at all.

In a world where actions and consequences reign supreme, I helped a woman avoid the pain of her choices........

Isn't that like most situations, where there's this constant collision of human to human in life, that it takes time... 5 minutes, or a day to create 10 extra possibilities we could have enacted. A better come back, a better action, a better reaction, a better sentence or choice. Today I've thought of 10 things I could have done that would have made my choices last night sit alittle more upright within myself.

For Jennae, the moronic woman in Boise Idaho, age 41, driving a black Toyota truck. Your truck was in the ditch off Broadway. You embarrass me, you and your choices. I regret helping you for one single second. I fear you will drink and drive again and maybe next time you'll harm an innocent........that makes me nauseous. You left your CD player faceplate from your truck on my dashboard. Although I remember where you live, I have no intentions of dropping it off out of kindness. Perhaps you'll feel 'alittle somethin' when you have to pay to replace it. Let's call it, a much cheaper consequence then the cost of a DUI, or killing someone...............