Harmony vs. NyQuil

Fever? Check~~
Chills? Check~~
Aches? Check~~
Headache? Check like a knife~~
Cough? Check again~~
Sniffles? Check yes~~
Miserable? Double check~~
Wintertime? No check, so where the hell did this come from?? Triple profanity~~

       If I trace my steps backwards, I know at what point I cursed myself with forthcoming sickness. I did the ultimate kiss of sickness move, I bragged that I hadn't been sick in "longer then I can remember" ha ha ha........gotcha. I don't remember coming in contact with a single sick person, yet those words passed by my lips instantly cursing my health. There was no wood to knock on around and as soon as it came out my mouth I knew I was toast. That was a mere week ago talking to a coworker.

       Some may be wondering why if I feel so bad, I would be online typing. Well, I'll tell you why. I am currently suffering the consequences of NyQuil overdose. So much for that snappy little jingle, you know the one, stop sniffles, coughs, chills, fevers blah blah blah so you can rest medicine.........Evidently, if you take a wee bit too much, because your thinking you feel a whole lot of horrible, therefore possibly requiring a bit "extra" medicine to make sure and reinforce your recovery, you will be miserable. I have the shakes. I absolutely cannot sleep. What a grand thing this has become today........

       I know, I know, I asked for such punishment by not exactly following the directions, but tell that to an irrationally sick person. I'm desperate for relief.

       Anyhow....I'm not really here to simply whine my misery away. I'm here with a point, or thought, or musing thats been cruising through my fever fried brain today.

       A friend had wrote me, and from her thoughts she had questioned the concept of harmony in peoples lives. My knee jerk response to the word or concept of harmony is that it's another one of those illusionary words, emotions, that people strive for all of their lives. Hope for, reach for, and sometimes even hold onto, yet, it's another one of those things in life that you can only hold on to for so long before it slips out of your grasp again.

       So what exactly is harmony? Is it a feeling deep inside that a person acquires upon achieving a more realistic term like balance? Is harmony the feeling that fills one's spirit when all the inner demons and conflicts are finally put to rest? Or is harmony about all those delicate little threads that make up our family, our life, our friends, basically everything within our influence.....................

       I could tentatively say, I've felt the concept of harmony a few times in my life. But as life goes, things come along and toss a bowling ball at the pins of harmony and it's game over, new game card. Maybe I am a cynic, that doesn't believe harmony is something that can be maintained at a constant rate. Or maybe I'm more the realist, who expects the unexpected and if I have 5 pins of my harmony still standing, I feel pretty good.

       I understand everyone is different, and look at things individually. So maybe my idea's are out in the gutter lane of this concept, but I don't put a lot of energy into finding harmony in my life. I tend to focus more on balance. Balance and harmony could walk hand in hand, but to me, balance seems a more tangible goal rather then the fleeting feelings of harmony in my life.....................

       Now, I'm off to lay my head down on a pillow and hope for some nice harmony and balance to be found quickly with that darling NyQuil and it's unbalanced proportions!