Saturday, June 11, 2005

The Lifetime Itch

        How often have we all sat, staring at this screen, with the little curser line blinking at us, willing us to write something, anything. Well, it seems I'm having one of those moments. So when all else fails, write what seems simple and obvious, like about the blinking line that keeps teasing me with it's constant blink, blink, blink.

       This is the classic case of writing avoidance, block, procrastination whatever keeps the page white, instead of filled with a pattern of black letters. If I can justify time here, then I can avoid the space I should be typing into. I've hit the crossroads on one of my endeavors and it's decision time. Deletion and devastation, or revision and resurrection.

       Words can really add up to a whole lot of nadda, or a spectacular abundance that keeps a person enthralled. I love a good book. I feel pretty safe about making the assumption that most people enjoy a good book, but not all readers enjoy writing. Although it would seem the two go hand in hand, I know several people who enjoy devouring a fine book on a Saturday afternoon, but wouldn't dream of keeping a journal, or even sending a friend in a letter. I suppose, either you have the writing itch or you don't.


        I for one, have a writing itch that never seems to be scratched.

       It's much deeper then just keeping my many journals alive. It's about scratching out the occasional eclectic stream of conscience sentences, which Plittle over at  Aurora Walking Vacation had suggested as poetry, although I've never considered, nor labeled myself a poet. Now, I'll give Paul credit, against my denial of being poet material, he has been able to substantiate his claims with some pretty undeniable material. If I remember correctly, he pulled out the dictionary with me, and that hurt. Hard to argue with the grand daddy of word meaning, the all powerful master of definition, the dictionary. <By the way, mighty crafty move on your part Paul> I'm just not ready to toss a label of poet next to my name. Too many expectations, guidelines, purpose, labels associated withpoetry,and if I may be blunt, some <those usually who claim to be of the serious nature> poets can be a biased, judgmental, pretentious society, of which I'm perfectly happy looking in the window at the cliche.

      It's also about this itch that picks on me constantly. The itch that is stories. To tell a tale, to craft a story, to write a scene, these are the little visions that pick at me until I write them down. Sometimes it comes at me in the form of a title. Poof, like reading the title of a book, then the story follows around it. Sometimes it's a person, and I write a whole story around that specific character. Occasionally I'll be talking to someone and something about the way they say a sentence brings forth a quick essay. And so on and on and on and on.........never ending mind bombardment.

       This is the stuff daydreamers are made of. Off to lala land, mind floating in the clouds, enticing new and interesting versions of everyday life. This is the life of a writer. I think though, it's important to distinguish the difference between a writer and an author, just as I distinguish in my own world, the difference between a poet and a simple person who writes slightly quirky meandering of her mind. I'm not an author, nor am I a poet, but I could be if I keep writing, daydreaming and tenaciously step up to the next level............the labels are attainable.

       Enough procrastination here, I think I've wrote enough, to knock down the block I was facing just over there...........

When all else fails, borrow from another

I am no philosopher, but if continuity is anything,
It is in this, bright pictures in the dark of the mind,
Each an echo of something, but still unique.
Claude Monet

19 comments:

Anonymous said...

Let's back off from labels, shall we. Nobody call Rebecca a poet, OK? She's never been within a hundred miles of a black beret and a bongo drum. Just allow me to say that I find your prose to be poetic. There, that's a description, not a label. Whaddaya think?
-Paul

Anonymous said...

I have a friend who is a writer. He says that if he doesn't write the ideas down on paper they just keep banging around in his head <LOL> I am NOT a writer, but sometimes the ideas bang in my head. I would tell him the ideas, and a story would come out.... His first 2 published stories were from my ideas. They were only published in small magazines, but he got his first checks for being a writer... and I got a steak dinner for each... Good trade in my eyes <LOL> Anyway, my point is that people like you who make words dance and sing fascinate me. That is what keeps me coming back. To see what you made the words do today. I don't need a label for you... I just see you as a unique and remarkable entity that brightens my world ;)
http://journals.aol.com/astaryth/AdventuresofanEclecticMind

Anonymous said...

I really enjoy your writing
marti

Anonymous said...

ahhhhhh ....... lovely and well done. judi

Anonymous said...

Here you are writing about having little to write about and it completely falls into place to make a spectacular entry!  I love the lightbulb.  Wish mine light up a little more often!  Michelle

Anonymous said...

What a wonderful journal you have here.....I am enjoying every word of it! I've got you linked to mine as well.....

Best,
Marsha

Anonymous said...

Again, a fantastic read! Thank you for sharing!
Charley
http://journals.aol.com/cdittric77/Courage

Anonymous said...

I never write when I have to, only when I want to. It helps keep the block away. But if you have an itch, then by all means, scratch it with as much gusto as possible. Go for it, and don't look back.

And revision never hurt anyone. Me? I'm about to go revise my kitchen right now. Heheh. Ya know, I think it was Ray Bradbury that sent a manuscript in about fifty times before someone accepted it. Pretty amazing, when you think about it. Even the "greats" have to start somewhere.

Ari

Anonymous said...

I'm just wondering how long it will take for your scratching/itching "dance" to grant you a spot on the NY Best Sellers List.........
CarrieCMc
http://journals.aol.com/ccmcwriter/TheWayICameToBeMe

Anonymous said...

I love coming to your journal.  It's often like reading myself...  as if I staepped out and left notes to Dawn so I could read what's on my mind.  :)  Thanks for writing, you made my day a little better.
Dawn

Anonymous said...

I am no writer, but I definitely appreciate your words and how you make them express many of the EXACT emotions I am feeling, yet never knew how to share.  I sit in awe and wonder how you put the words in place, and bring together a mirage of thoughts and weave them into something so clear.  

Anonymous said...

Thanks for stopping by. I just updated. You might want to check it out.  I've stared at alot of screens in my life, and you gotta make your move or remain lost in the white noise and white space of indecision.  Yeah, it's a metaphor. Come and see me sometime.

Anonymous said...

Thanks for stopping by. I just updated. You might want to check it out.  I've stared at alot of screens in my life, and you gotta make your move or remain lost in the white noise and white space of indecision.  Yeah, it's a metaphor. Come and see me sometime.

Anonymous said...

See I am NOT the only one who thinks you could or should be that best seller!!!! Poetry comes from the soul, the heart....it does not have to rhyme or be in a set form. Its what you make it. What it means to you. With your passion...that you wear on that sleeve and share so freely with us...You are a poet. Your style/genre is different..and THAT is what makes an artist. You are truly a woman I look up to you. I love your writing Rebecca. I have said this numerous times. You and your soul bearing testaments are inspirations for me, leave me thinking, leave me awed, make me smile, make me cry...THAT is great writing! And yes You my friend have even left me speechless at times...Anyhoo...ya got it goin' on girl....dont discount this wonderful talent!!!!!!
Jodi

Anonymous said...

Hello....Recently I came upon your journal on this sweltering night. I feel the same way staring at the screen blinking at me. I really find that your writing is deeply felt. You write thoughts in your journal that I have in my head but unable to capture on paper. I really find your writing to be amazing.

Anonymous said...

Ya know, Rebecca, I truly enjoy a good read.  Poetry, fiction, non-fiction, novella, good writing is good writing, and I'm mentally challenged when I read your words.  Each of your entries I'm captivated.  I must confess that each day my mind writes a novel, some days I get some of it on paper some days I don't.  I'm comforted in knowing the next day will bring me a mental basket of new material.  Don't let the blinking cursor deter you, just relax and let your mind go.  You already have an active imagination, just take a deep breath, relax and let it flow.......
Best,
Judith
http://journals.aol.com/jtuwliens/MirrorMirrorontheWall

Anonymous said...

Wow.... I often do the same thing... since I'm no poet I work on anti-poetry, as you already know... quite often, too, I read other's journals and do not feel up to the task of creating something unique...there are some great writer's out there and I am often taken to a side road of thinking about their motivations, their ability to put it on paper, then I feel at a loss for words.... Love the last line of the Monet phrase... says it all... Penny

Anonymous said...

Hello there~ Monet is my absolute favorite painter. I've got the itch for photgraphy more than words, but won't rest till I publish at least one book in my lifetime. Visit my journals under SassyDee50 at Hometown; I have moved so not updated since April. Tata for now~Sassy

Anonymous said...

GREAT WRITING! AS an author myself..i know how the writers block can hit..but you did a great job by just writing through it..its like a tunnel..dark for a moment, but the opening is straight ahead. Keep on pushing...~FLAVA~