Divide and Conquer

Divide and Conquer

       Number One: Ex-husband
             Facts Exhibit 1) Divine solution that seemed innocent enough blows up Rebecca's credit. Basics, upon division of marriage many years ago, terms agreed upon include, no child support in leu of X keeping home, paying mortgage, and ultimately upon sale of home, Rebecca to receive majority of equity. 
       Rebecca goes to buy new truck this month and discovers her credit has gone from mid 700s to an incredible *!$!, unable to reproduce the numbers here in writing out of sheer horror. It is then discovered el Xhole has negated paying home mortgage for the majority of the year 2004. Rebecca never quick claimed herself off mortgage because she didn't want to lose control of home she actually purchased.

             Feelings on Exhibit 1. Devastated is a good start. I think the reason I have been so sick over this betrayal this last month is sheer devastated deception. To think, all these years, paying my bills on time out of sheer determination to keep good credit. All the things I had gone without in order to keep my head above water. All the times I paid bills instead of buying clothes, going to a movie, forgoing food and little things to make sure the bill sharks weren't after me. And for what, just to have a has been undermine everything I worked for in one fell swoop. I was certainly never notified of this default of payment. If the damned X had mentioned his irresponsibility I would have paid the mortgage. I have the money to do so, and would have to save my own financial means.
             Solution to Exhibit 1) Been working with lenders, mortgage company, made the X type up a "it's not her fault letter" which has little to no power in the world of credit. Will continue to pay bills on time, and climb back from this oblivion, in 12-24 months according to the powers that be.

             Fact Exhibit 2) X hubby coming to home to pick up said children with hickeys riddling his neck (more then one occasion)

             Feelings on Exhibit 2) Gawd, give me a break. This isn't rocket science and this isn't high school. I have absolutely no issues with him having a girlfriend, I couldn't care less. It's just lets move alittle higher on the thought level, above the belt and think about what this says to your two daughters!

             Solution to Exhibit 2) Explained to X that although I understand his new girlfriend is just out of high school, and barely 8 years older then his eldest daughter, I would like him to explain to his youngster <I'm not talking about his daughters> that he has girls, young girls, and if she wants to hoover him, she can do it anywhere they don't have to look at.

             Fact Exhibit 3) X has become more and more undependable about picking up kids on said appointed times, more and more undependable about answering phone, less and less time with children. And drinking seems to be a more common factor in his life.

             Feelings and Solution. Well, I believe exhibit 1,2,3 are all directly related and the result of his thinking below the belt. Solution unable to be found at the moment. It's just impossible to manage everything else that gets tossed at me when I have to baby-sit him and his actions too. Cutting me off at the legs with the credit thing, just so he has the money to take youngster on numerous vacations, <without kids of course> and buy his new aura of fashion to fit in with his new crowd, just installs a feeling of rage. If his actions didn't directly involve me I would care less.

       Number Two: Business Partner
             Fact Exhibit 1) Partner has excused himself basically from all responsibility in means of financial and simple work from all current projects. His inability to follow through and stand by his word has resulted in twice the work load for Rebecca. His inability to do the job done right the first time has become quite a caveat for him, because he knows Rebecca will come along behind, put the fires out and finish everything.

             Feelings on Exhibit 1) I am so tired of doing not only my work, but others in the name of doing things 100% right. Maybe it's my desire for perfection, my desire to have happy clients, my desire to be the best, but this has become downright unbalanced slavery.

             Solution to Exhibit 1) Have had two meetings with the powers that be to dissolve said partnership in the last week. Have provided factual representation of work done, money at stake (To the tune of $180,000) and said partner is obviously fighting for his cut. Integrity and honor are the closest to my heart, and I have struggled with my fight to keep things fair. Gross compensation was a word that one person used to defend my position and to help win my battle. I couldn't agree more. Just another cause for my current song and dance of frustration in my life.

       Number Three: Residing in my home

     For reasons I cannot explain, I've given my word I would not discuss this in my journal. Reticent strife.

       Number Four: On the horizon

       To know something is so close, yet so far away. A comfort and a fear of loss. Action and value with life changing consequences and rewards.

And these are just a few of my favorite things, that have made me sing the tune of a country western song. 
      
And Paul  Aurora Walking Vacation   , bring on the jokes, I could use some sort of let the force be with you smile, anything would be better then thinking I'm reduced to a country western song...........